If you know me at all or have read my “About Me” section here, you would know that we have two beautiful daughters. It was a long process (long is relative always in the infertility game) to get pregnant for us which I can talk about more later but just came across this poem I wrote in the middle of it all. It was actually after our 4th IUI (intrauterine insemination) procedure around October of 2015. It was one of the times I got a phone call from our doc saying that I was again not pregnant.

I have always written little rhyming poems for birthdays, just for fun, and even for a few eulogies. This time it was really just for me. I was sitting at work (yes, got that call during work) and I just needed a few minutes to calm my brain and deal with what I was feeling before jumping back into my day-to-day. I sat down at my computer and wrote out my thoughts.

I thought it may ring true to some of you out there during your journey and wanted to share. Maybe you can relate and share your story with me. Relate to everything but the butt chin and big eye part that is… Hey, if you can relate to that too, great!

(with the big eyes)

I came across my journal where I had rewritten this poem and after it, I had written: I know this poem is not perfect or profound but it is what I was feeling at the time and it helped to get it down on paper. I do have faith/hope it is all going to work out. There is no other option. It has to. 

And guys…. it did.  

The pain that you are feeling can’t compare to the joy that is coming – Romans 8:18